options.

i have thoughts.
though they may be altered by the night
their basis and foundation is quite stable.

1.people are easily understandable. but, with this being said it can be understood that people do things to be misunderstood...you know, to keep their motives unknown. lying is a great example of this... i've encountered many lies recently. and even more deceit. but i ignore things or simply leave them be. in many cases, i simply dont have the strength to bring it up...i'll snap one day.

2.i'm a pretty decent guy. according to quite a few people, i'm great. since i've been single quite a few "options" have made themselves known. crushes. exes. "friends". and it makes me wonder...i know shes not comin back...so how do i move on.? how do i live.? or do i remain as close as possible hoping to reconnect...knowing of him...and the things i know.?

3.love is foolish. love is blind. love is evil. and as a good friend of mine once said "love isn't real."

i want to write a sacrifice story. i've done quite a bit of it...
i want sex. i dont think i'll be waiting any longer.

i probably shouldnt be thinking of these things on my vacation...


for now, my mind will rest. i think.
though, it is troubled.
thanks love.