leading from behind

ive been very down on myself lately.

i feel like a failure.

everyone is graduating this year. class of 2010.

while im hardly a sophomore. 

everyone will have their master's and steady jobs

while i'll still be trying to get my undergrad.

and today, i found, that that endeavor will be even further pushed back due to rules that i cannot bend.

but.

then i think, all the great leaders of our time didnt graduate either.

though i do need my degree to capture my goal, i can still be a leader in my generation. right?

i havent become irrelevant yet, have i? God, i hope not. 

there is an anime i watch, "Naruto."

the story of a demon infested boy dying to become greater than himself to prove himself.

he wants to become the leader of his village to prove to everyone that he isnt just a derelict.

quickly, he grows stronger than everyone, learns more powerful "justu" and then leaves the village to train even harder.

upon his return, he finds that everyone in his, so to speak, ninja-class has graduated and begun their careers as ninja when he hasnt done the same. though he fells like a failure and left behind, he reminds everyone that he, solely, can protect the village.

odd that i compare myself to this magna.

i wont be seen a failure for much longer. 

i will catch and surpass my class, i must if i plan to lead the next generation. 

i might be behind everyone else but, for some reason, i feel as though i have accomplished more than most. (but im starting to feel like im just running in circles.)

i am not satisfied here. in this position. 

i must move.

If langston did it then why cant i?