"update me you lazy, depressed bastard!!!"
thus, here is my update on life
holidays: are stupid. you go and plan all this stuff, get all excited just to be completely let down. christmas with this family sucked. i spoke none, hardly ate and received things i would have rather gotten myself. it seems my parents are looking for things to hold over my head. i gave only a 25$ gift card to the movies...i was being nice. christmas with the gf was different. i gave her an iPod, arm carrying case and a webcam. yea...i know. it was nice to be appreciated for once. she cried, like always. so im assuming she liked it.
new years. she and i went to watch the peach drop. argued half the way there. tried to salvage the night while actually watching the peach fall. but we argued the entire way home. it was a complete disaster. once at her house, again, we tried to salvage the night. we talked our problems through and left on a good note.
i left feeling uneasy.
work: sucks. i work. dont get paid. work. get paid. work. work. work. i hate my job. and will be quitting very soon.
family: i could do without them.
music: im stuck on Coldplay's latest album "Viva La Vida". something about the song "Lost!" captures my every emotion.
the more i live the more trapped i feel. it seems as though there is no up. only further into this pit can i go. i hate it. i hate life. i hate living.
my blog screams this too...
