no, dear love, i do not hate you.
you were there when i needed you and that is something i can never forget.
but we have grown.
i, into more of myself.
and you, into more of your own entity.
but we have grown possibly apart.
this doesn't mean my love for you has faded
nor does it make my longing for you any easier
but i cannot have you in the ways i wish
due to our roadblock named "distance"
sigh.
but as you enjoy your freedom of me
as you lavish in the world without my constant pessimistic voice
i know you have enjoyed our time apart.
thus i must admit,
in my growth, i have grown to enjoy my solitude
long days in my room
meditation
music
a pen
and pad.
i wont say i no longer need you
but i will confess that i will live without you if ever we shall part for good.
do not take this letter as a goodbye
or take its contents and confuse them with "he love me not"s.
for neither are the case. you have my heart. and my thoughts.
oh dear blog, how it pains me to say these words to you.
but, once again, i must bid thee adieu.
adieu.
-your once avid blogger.
