pimpin is easy.

i awake in an unfamiliar place. but im comfortable. im relaxed.

i met a woman last night. i believe she was 21 or 22. she stated that she loved fucking skinny guys.
"they're easier to ride."
she knew i was listening. she even smiled at her friend while saying so.
and i realized, "i could lay her on the floor right now and fuck her until her boyfriend comes to get her."
i was tempted to do just that. but i refrained.

my mind takes me back to the mall where i was just hours before hand.
it reminds me of all the women (and men =/) that stared me down as i passed them.
and...i got annoyed. so annoyed that i took a few numbers with me.

i left the mall with a total of eight numbers...some of which belonged to two girls...and more of which wanted to "hang out"that night..within that hour.
then it hit me: being single is too easy. i can grab any female out of the mall...fuck them...send them home to their men..and do it again. whenever i want.

most men would love to live like that..we all know i'm not most men. i enjoy the challenge of a relationship. the fights. the love. the emotions. i miss it. i've been single for 3months. and i'm bored already.

and though i could be with somebody...right now...i know i'm not ready. i'd kill the relationship before it even got off the ground. comparing them to her. hell, i do it now.
and even with all her flaws...she still manages to topple most of the competition.

and yet.
enter the real potential. the two i believe can really stand their ground and produce a relationship that could match the one i was in.

i'm going to mGm today. should be fun.
where all the hoes at.?

options.

i have thoughts.
though they may be altered by the night
their basis and foundation is quite stable.

1.people are easily understandable. but, with this being said it can be understood that people do things to be misunderstood...you know, to keep their motives unknown. lying is a great example of this... i've encountered many lies recently. and even more deceit. but i ignore things or simply leave them be. in many cases, i simply dont have the strength to bring it up...i'll snap one day.

2.i'm a pretty decent guy. according to quite a few people, i'm great. since i've been single quite a few "options" have made themselves known. crushes. exes. "friends". and it makes me wonder...i know shes not comin back...so how do i move on.? how do i live.? or do i remain as close as possible hoping to reconnect...knowing of him...and the things i know.?

3.love is foolish. love is blind. love is evil. and as a good friend of mine once said "love isn't real."

i want to write a sacrifice story. i've done quite a bit of it...
i want sex. i dont think i'll be waiting any longer.

i probably shouldnt be thinking of these things on my vacation...


for now, my mind will rest. i think.
though, it is troubled.
thanks love.

the reader.

i see things.
things people dont think i do.
things i probably shouldnt.

paranormal things.
lies.
souls of the living.

i can read.
people.
it comes from my extreme note of details.
i know when i've hurt somebody.
i know when someone has been hurt.

but not many can say the same about me.

but as i said.
i can read.

and what i've read contradicts what she has said.
lies. deceit.
she once told me that whens shes in an intimate setting of one or two more people she hates to txt because its rude.
but when its just us, what i believe to be the most intimate of settings, she responds to everything he says.
-contradiction-

whats worse.
i know thats shes going to mississippi to see him. and when she does i doubt she'll respond to anything i say.
hopefully she'll go while im in orlando so i wont be so upset with the neglect.

i can read.
people.
souls.
and your character says i've lost my place in your book.
sometimes...it matters not what the author says behind that.