thought.

dont trust people.

i mean. trusting one or two with a few things is understandable.
but trusting one with everything. or more than one with anything at all is pure foolishness.

i made the mistake of taking someone around the people i considered "friends".
guys i've known for six years.
2 out of 3 have gond behind my back to make a move. i found out and simply made my knowledge known.
the third (who i've foolishly trusted with everything) has turned against me with the assumption that i've been "talkin' shit" about him.

there is only one other person who i trust with everything.
a person who will not only remain nameless but will also be punished because of the mistakes of these others.

i have no reason to return to "Walden Park"
and i dont plan on doing so for the sake of "friends"

...i hope i can say the same for a few others.

4.31

in the morning that is.
i sit poolside, once again.
ready to endure the storm ahead.

though my vacation was somewhat turbulent, i have found calm skies.
if only i could reach them....

i have alot of mending to do upon my return.
friendships to renew. hearts to mend.

being away was nice.
made people miss me. made people want me. made people vocal about both.
the vacation itself. 4.5 stars. orlando is a wonderful place [minus its drivers.]
i find myself wanting to stay out of georgia and still wanting to start anew.

the opportunity to do so is well within sight.

reading "atlas shrugged" i see the person i want to be.
its really a wonderful book...after the first 1oo pages...and before the other thousand. [smh]
but its an endeavor i'm totally enjoying. learning is fun.
i wish i had a deeply philosophical mind to share this knowledge with.

4.4o.
i must go.
"time waits for no man. no woman wants a man with time on his hands.