and much of it.
i received a thousand dollar plus check not long ago.
900 of those dollars were supposed to go to paying off my saint leo bill.
it would have left me with roughly three hundred dollars.
until spring.
lets not forget that i have to eat daily. drive daily. i dont work. and i hardly "shop"
this being said---300 dollars wouldnt last me much longer than three weeks.
so i didnt pay the bill.
so i wont be able to enroll for another semester until i do.
sigh.
oh. and my landlord has decided to lend the bed i currently sleep in to her cousin.
understandable, right?
of course...it WOULD be if i had another place to go or if he didnt have anywhere else to go.
neither is the case. hes leaving his house to stay here and i have to leave my house so he can.
this means that i'll be homeless, yet again.
and in the midst of trying to get back into howard--my only options are
1.fight my way back into the university
2.air force/army
3.las vegas
only one of these is ideal. i feel my return to hu is very possible. i just cant lose hope.
but i am losing what little i had.
i feel like a maggot next to a wobbling jenga wall.
and i still wake up alone
and go to sleep alone.
the events that i do enjoy, i mostly indulge in alone and still some find fault.
but the Beatles said "let it be" so i will.
there isnt much i can do so i wont fret.
instead i'll let the shit hit the fan and watch where it lands.
i will remain calm.
