i feel like a failure.
everyone is graduating this year. class of 2010.
while im hardly a sophomore.
everyone will have their master's and steady jobs
while i'll still be trying to get my undergrad.
and today, i found, that that endeavor will be even further pushed back due to rules that i cannot bend.
but.
then i think, all the great leaders of our time didnt graduate either.
though i do need my degree to capture my goal, i can still be a leader in my generation. right?
i havent become irrelevant yet, have i? God, i hope not.
there is an anime i watch, "Naruto."
the story of a demon infested boy dying to become greater than himself to prove himself.
he wants to become the leader of his village to prove to everyone that he isnt just a derelict.
quickly, he grows stronger than everyone, learns more powerful "justu" and then leaves the village to train even harder.
upon his return, he finds that everyone in his, so to speak, ninja-class has graduated and begun their careers as ninja when he hasnt done the same. though he fells like a failure and left behind, he reminds everyone that he, solely, can protect the village.
odd that i compare myself to this magna.
i wont be seen a failure for much longer.
i will catch and surpass my class, i must if i plan to lead the next generation.
i might be behind everyone else but, for some reason, i feel as though i have accomplished more than most. (but im starting to feel like im just running in circles.)
i am not satisfied here. in this position.
i must move.
If langston did it then why cant i?
