"i'm going on"

because i'm tired of waiting. for as long as i could remember, this is all i have done. its all im doing.
waiting to go back to work. waiting for a check to come. waiting to finish school. waiting to get evicted. waiting for her return. [sidebar: the song which shares the same name as this entry just came on...omen?]

"i'm going on/ and i'm prepared to go it alone."

i am. i have to. this static way of life has grown old. irritating even. i'm tired. i want to quit.
death beckons, but i ignore her. i continue to live with little reason. i have to move. i have to move on.

hopefully, things will work out. hopefully, everything will be fine.
but i was never one to hope. i don't believe in much anymore. only a fool would allow himself to get his hopes high.

i am no fool.

"i'm going on/ and i promise i'll be waiting for you."